i'm still here. so is buck. i have printed out his photos and put them in a few locations throughout moss cottage. i am bombarding myself with sweet images of him. helping to replace the ugliness i saw on the day he died. i talk about him, i think about him, i look at him, i pick up his puffs of fur off the floors and press them to my cheek. breath in.
his ashes will be here when i return from budapest and i will dig them into the soil and start a catmint patch on top. he made many trips to the catmint pot everyday. rubbing his head all over, eating & crushing the leaves. now the rest of the cat posse will have a proper patch to roll in.
just today i labeled my paris earth & water samples
it seems like wyatt misses his brave leader, but i'm not a person who attributes human characteristics to animals. not in my pragmatic nature. so i don't know for sure. but he is looking around actively. something has changed. and wyatt earp's longtime companion has vanished. POOF.
it really was remarkable how buck allowed wyatt to pal around with him. he strongly disliked the missus and chased her constantly. i think she is pleased to be allowed inside without having to hide.
i had begun my travel journal the day before buck died. he slept on the cover. i had to keep picking him up and moving him off of it. somehow i managed to sew my signatures in nearly one-handed. picture a bear binding a book. that's me.
i'm looking forward to my journey to hungary tomorrow morning. away i'll go flying out over a couple of continents, a mighty ocean, and several seas. in my window seat. looking down at the world below.
life goes on. things are lost. new things are found.
don't have enough thank yous to wrap around all of you. but i am blowing kisses of gratitude for your support. i can feel it. no energy to answer all the comments, but i register each one in my mind. read them over. sometimes unexpected laughter erupts. a light & lovely tonic to wash out the dark corners.
see you in a couple of days. i'll be blogging from budapest. my eyes 2 cameras that record what they see and transmit back.
girl reporter on assignment.